It’s been awhile since I updated this blog… Sorry! Nothing happened, perse. I guess just the woes that come along with a TBI and the excitement of a birthday.
November is my birthday month. I felt so many emotions this year. I couldn’t tell if I was excited or sad or anything else. My therapist had to walk me through my various, yet conflicting, emotions.
She helped me realize recovery is not linear. Let me say this aloud as I type it: RECOVERY IS NOT LINEAR! I hear this, but it’s hard to live that way. In my mind, I should be happy all the time, because I survived something so terrible, instead I just feel guilty for not being happy all the time. In fact, I feel happy, sad, annoyed, frustrated, confused, excited, guilty, add any other emotion in here. My therapist told me this was all normal and it was okay to feel it, but I HAVE to let myself feel it.
Thank God for therapy!
I have to be okay with every emotion I feel, and I have to honor and make space for my feelings and thoughts. So, that is what I spent time on my birthday doing.
I prayed and looked at baby pictures, reflected, and allowed myself to be okay with any mistakes I made, and allowed myself to let people love on me (thanks to my family and friends). I acknowledged how blessed I am AND acknowledged how this situation sucks and I’m dope AF for persevering through it.
As always, thanks for letting me share
Enjoy some pics from my birthday with my family and Friendsgiving with my loves.
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